Chile

I haven't blogged in ages and I don't really remember how to do this, but I feel like I should stop apologizing for that so much. But I was looking at old posts and that thing happened where you absolutely hate everything you have ever made before like two hours ago. Anyhow, here are some photos from my trip to Chile. It was strange and tired and cold and beautiful. Like a bright yellow wall with cracks in it, or a like kind-looking dog with matted fur. All photos taken with a Canon AE-1.

Current mood:

journals

I thought I'd share some pages from my journal today. They don't make a lot of sense, but I think journals that do make a lot of sense are like the end products of paint-by-numbers sets; very pleasing on a shelf, but lacking in scope/passion/ART. I try to write at strange hours, when my mind can forget to care about conventions and judgements and the like. So yeah. Normally I would end this paragraph with some kind of apology but I'm trying not to do that so much.

P.S. I'm going to start ending my posts with a song or two that I'm currently f~e~e~l~i~n~g.

So, current mood:

tips for avoiding awkward encounters

Well shit. It looks like you are in a public place accompanied by no less than three members of your immediate family and you see that really cool sometimes hi buddy that you kind of know from your English class last year. I am here to rescue you, and tell you how to avoid this girl. Not how to speak to her, though. God knows that's too advanced for me.

1. Keep your phone in an easily accessible pocket at all times. (If you don't have a phone, a watch will work just as well.) When you see this girl (likely wearing a Modern Vampires of the City tour tee and accompanied by a large group of tittering city-chic friends, the likes of which you've only dreamed about), pause mid-stride and develop a slight, half-exasperated, half-revelatory expression and "instinctively" reach for your phone/watch. Gee, it looks like you've forgotten to head to your appointment with your neighborhood psychiatrist. Gotta run! 

Bonus: you'll look like you have somewhere totally, like, ultra-important to be.

2. If you find yourself without a phone or watch, Plan B calls for a more visceral response. Upon sighting said acquaintance, duck into the nearest doorway/side street/storefront. Pace yourself though. You were clearly planning on going that way the whole time.

3. This is a last resort. Let's say you and this girl lock eyes. Ugh, eye contact. And it's one of those "I acknowledge your presence but I'm too far away to say hi or else there will be this mutually uncomfortable silence between the greeting and the actual physical meeting of bodies" moments. You will be forced to interact. The trick: squint. When you get to her, say, "Oh, hi Jackie! Oh God I couldn't even see you from back there; I'm completely blind without my glasses. Well, bye!" I may have overstepped my boundaries in giving advice about actual vocalization, but it will have to do.

In all seriousness, you can totally say hi and bye without it being "weird." Your acquaintance won't think much of it, and they probably feel the same way you do, anyways. That way you'll be "that nice girl/boy" instead of "wait, does that person even go to our school?"

Lots of love,

Ana